"They" lied to me

Remember when you were in middle school and everyone told you that high school was way better and you didn't believe them and then they were right. And then again they told you college was way better then high school and although it was hard to believe life could get any better you believe them because they were right before. But they were wrong. College sucks.  I thought that when I turned 18 I would be done hiding in the bathroom and crying.

Tonight was "Rock the U." A dance "marathon" for the Huntsman Cancer Society. It use to go for 26.2 hours straight but because of low attendance it was shortened to just 4 hours this year.... There was still only a handful of people there. This upsets me because I feel like the University tries to put on some really fun events but no one attends. I honestly don't know where the 30,000 students were. Probably doing something better on a Friday night like sleeping or watching a movie.Honestly I don't live to sleep. I live to party. I'm only young once and I'm not going to blow it watching movies and going to bed early. (or at least I wish I didn't, but often times that"s my only choice)  Although I love the University of Utah, it's student body is full of duds!

But back to the crying. Why is it that when you are trying not to cry you hold your breath? It's a really bad idea because then when you have to a breath you end up gasping for breath and sounding like an idiot. Anyways, I'm tried of not having friends. I went tonight because it sounded like fun and I'm tried of watching movies. I was pretty sure I wasn't going to have fun because I only knew one person going, but I went with a positive attitude and gave it a shot. I was dancing... with some people I didn't know, when I recognized a girl in my ward. I went to dance with her group and about 30 second later the group left without me. Looking like an idiot and dancing by myself, I decided to take a break and go eat a sandwich. Which was a big mistake! I then had to sit at a table by myself, which is worse then dancing with strangers. I went back out to the dance floor and after getting ignored a few more times I decide to take a break in the bathroom. And like many times before, I cried. I then realized that unlike being 14 at a stake dance, I drove myself and because I had no friends to wait for I really could leave. So I did.

They lied to me. Life is same as before if not worse. and I'm still crying in the bathroom at parties.

On a lighter note LDSSA had a table with free stuff and although I don't support LDSSA (it's a long story). I love there chap stick and I recently lost mine so I got a new on for FREE!